By Becky Jones
I’ve always had quite the flair for the dramatic. I was involved in theater from a very early age and have enjoyed being on many different stages throughout my life. I think it’s incredibly fun and exhilarating to get dressed up, be in front of an audience and for a few moments in time, suspend my own reality and just pretend to be someone else living a life not like my own. It’s been a while since I’ve actually been in a play but a few years ago I started to Emcee various events at my church and realized, rather quickly, that I was willing to do just about anything on stage to make sure the audience had a great time. At one point, I honestly think the people in charge of events said, “what’s the craziest idea we can come up with? Let’s see if Becky will do it!” The answer to that was always “yes, yes I will.” I now take this flair of mine and just do it randomly. No real stage required. I simply love dressing up & making people laugh! I am the girl who legitimately showed up to her own surprise birthday party wearing a pink Unicorn onesie.
I have always been an off-the-charts extrovert. I never shy away from a spotlight moment and being in front of people and on stage comes pretty naturally to me. I find it absolutely thrilling when I can make people laugh and if that means dressing up in ridiculous cupcake outfits, even better! But you see, recently the Lord has been doing a work in me and I have really struggled in the area of only being known as “the funny one.” I find myself wrestling with all the parts that make me who I am and trying to make one aspect more superior than another. When I’m funny I worry that no one knows I have more to me than just a silly costume and begin to freak out and worry that people will think I only seek the spotlight because I’m narcissistic and want attention. And when I’m not funny and find myself talking about the deeper things of life, I worry that people are disappointed because they thought I was going to be way more fun than I turned out to be. I struggle because while I feel both are equally real and authentic parts of myself, I always wonder what people will think or how they will receive which Becky they get in each moment. Will THEY believe one is less real than another? Is who I am enough? Will I be accepted? Do they think I’m qualified? Should I be more of this or that? WHAT. WILL. PEOPLE. THINK?
I feel this amazingly massive burden to share with others what, I believe, is a move of God taking place in the hearts of His people to be Unmasked. And I desperately want to take people to the deeper more intimate places with Him. I want to see a massive move of God take place in the world and I really want to be a part of it in any capacity He’ll allow. Yet, I struggle to figure out which part of me should be used and how. I find it so ironic that the very thing I feel God has asked me to share with others is the one thing I struggle with the most. I’m constantly questioning, “who am I?” I ask this question in two parts:
- As a simple identity question – What is it that defines me? Who am I? Who is the REAL me?
- As a humility (or maybe more accurately an insecurity) question – What do I have to offer here? Who am I that God should even know me or ask me to do anything for His Glory?
The verse the Lord has spoken loud and clear to me over the past few months as I’ve asked these questions and wrestled with truly living Unmasked is 1 Samuel 16:7b (NKJV) “For the Lord does not see as man sees for man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.”
When the Lord spoke those words he was appointing David, a lowly shepherd boy, to be King! David was called out of obscurity into greatness not because of what man saw outwardly about David but because of what God saw inwardly. Immediately following these verses we see the story of when David goes against Goliath. David could have stayed focused on how his brothers viewed him and he definitely could’ve let his current job title as Shepherd dictate who he was and what purpose and destiny he would fulfill. He could have been like me and worried about what others thought of him or how they would view him and if what they saw was good enough or qualified enough or worthy enough. Instead, David trusted in the call of God and the anointing he received and believed what God said about him. He recognized the power of God that was within him! It took David seeing himself the way God sees him to know he was capable of greatness.
Are you delaying or missing out on the purpose and destiny God has for your life because you won’t take your eyes off who you aren’t long enough to see who God is in you?
So many times I let the fear of man overrule the call of God in my life. I forget that it isn’t about what man sees. I forget that people don’t dictate my destiny. I so often find myself focusing on what others will think instead of just being obedient to what God has asked me to do. I worry about who I’m not and who I should be instead of simply focusing on the power of God within me!!
We are living in some dark days as of late. Our world is desperate for love and truth and the things only Jesus can bring. And if the enemy can keep us so locked up in our fears and what man will think of us then we paralyze ourselves and ultimately miss out on the many opportunities God has given us to share Him with a hurting world! This is the type of tomfoolery the enemy keeps throwing our way. He’s like the ultimate mean girl and yet we keep letting him get to us! This has to stop!! We cannot let the lies of the enemy and the opinions of man supersede the call of God in our life! We can no longer stay just a lowly shepherd! It’s time to face the giants and be King!
We must get a revelation that it’s not about what I can do or who I am or what is underneath the masks that I wear but it’s about who God is and who He is in me! He does not look at what man looks at! I want you to fulfill every dream you have for yourself! I want you to get deep revelation of God’s love for you. I want you to make a difference in this world. I want you to see yourself as God sees you. You can be both funny and deep. You can embrace all the wonderful and crazy, weird and amazing things about yourself because you are created on purpose and with a purpose!
Take some time today to sit at the feet of Jesus and let Him speak these truths over you today. Let Him show you how He sees you because you can no longer sit paralyzed in fear of what man thinks and delay your destiny! The world needs to see Jesus in you but they won’t see Him until you see Him there first!!
You are rescued and redeemed (Psalm. 40:2 NKJV)
Your are loved and your worth is priceless (John 3:16 NIV)
You are a new creation (2 Corinthians 5:17 NKJV)
You are not condemned (Romans 8:1 NLT)
You are valuable (1 Corinthians 6:20 NLT)
You are accepted (Ephesians 1:6 NKJV)
You are wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14 MSG)
You are a friend of God (John 15:15 NKJV)
You are righteous (2 Corinthians 5:21 NKJV)
You are a child of God (1 John 3:1 NLT)
You are delighted in (Zephaniah 3:17 NIV)
You are forgiven (Ephesians 1:7 NLT)
You are never alone (Deuteronomy 31:8 NKJV)
You are victorious (Psalm 18:35 NLT)
You are free (Galatians 5:1 MSG)
You are beloved (Jeremiah 31:3 NKJV)
You are beautiful (Song of Songs 4:7 NIV)
You have purpose (Jeremiah 29:11 NIV)
You are Chosen – “You are the ones chosen by God, chosen for the high calling of priestly work, chosen to be a holy people, God’s instruments to do his work and speak out for him, to tell others of the night-and-day difference he made for you—from nothing to something, from rejected to accepted. (1 Peter 2:9-10 - MSG)
Meet Becky Jones
Becky and her husband, Shane, and their two kids live North of Dallas. Becky is one of a kind (in the best way). When she is not writing, speaking, or leading at her local church she is getting her daughter to her next dance class or battling the next level in Star Wars with her son. Fun and laughs will come if you are around Becky for 5 seconds but make sure you stick around because she is a deep well with a passion for pursuing God's real heart for herself and others. I asked Becky to launch our first blog series with her study on being unmasked and I could not be more thrilled she said YES. Join us for the next few weeks to not only be encouraged but also given the freedom to have honest conversations with yourself, the Lord, and others. You will not regret it.