“I am strong and full of life. I am steadfast no compromise. I lift my sails to the sky, I’m gonna catch the wind. I am bold no fear inside. Spread my wings open my life. Like an eagle whose home is the sky, I’m gonna catch the wind.”
These few short lines have been on repeat in my mind for months now. I had the privilege to hear Melissa Helser share on how this song was birthed while out at Bethel Church this summer, and it has wrecked me. Wrecked me in the best way as God has been building on small principles in my life to really drive a point home to my heart.
Melissa has dealt with a bone disease since she was seventeen years old. A disease that has brought great pain and at times kept her in bed. On one such occasion, along with the pain, was a heavy oppression on her spirit. She began praying and asking God to lift the heaviness and take her pain. She was practically begging when God whispered back to her, “Sing your way out.” Melissa quickly replied, “Um, God, I’m not sure you understand the pain I’m in. You’re gonna have to take this from me.” To which God replied again, “Sing your way out.” Melissa continued to argue with God for the next few moments, convinced she did not have it in her to sing, then God replied again and said, “I know who you are. Sing your way out.” In mere frustration Melissa stood up, half bent over in pain, and began to shout the first words that came to her mind. “I am strong and full of life! I am steadfast no compromise! I lift my sails to the sky, I’m gonna catch the wind!” She shouted from a deep place within her and suddenly felt something lift. It wasn’t the pain, but it was the heaviness on top of the pain that began to melt away. She quickly realized exactly what God did and sang it out again.
Earlier this summer God began to speak to me about Proverbs 25:2 “It is the glory of God to conceal a matter, but the glory of kings is to search out a matter.” Ever just have those seasons where everything feels hidden? Like God is concealing everything and not letting you in on His plan and you feel hindered from moving forward? That has been my present season and this verse caught my attention. It wasn’t until I heard Melissa’s story that it started to make more sense. What if God knows who we are? (mind-blowing I know) What if He knows what we’re really capable of? And if He knows all of that, then He also knows that at times it takes us searching out a matter to step into our true identity. It takes God refraining from stepping in to answer our immediate cry. Maybe God isn’t concealing to withhold though, but concealing as an opportunity. What if in our searching we actually step into being who He already knows we are and are meant to be?
For Melissa, God knew she had an authority and power in her voice and that in her declaring, heaviness had to leave. It was in her shout that anointing broke through. It was in her leaning in beyond her comfort that she stepped into her true identity and there her glory was revealed. Her God-given glory as a daughter of the King carrying His full authority.
What is it that maybe God is asking you to search out? What is it you feel He is withholding that maybe you need to start seeing as an opportunity of promotion for the next season? My prayer for each of us is that we will start declaring boldly in agreement with who He says we are, even when we don’t see or feel it, and step beyond our comfort to search out His heart. And in doing so, we will catch the wind of His spirit in our sails to enter the next season with a greater understanding of who He says we are.
“Like standing on the edge of a mountainside
I can feel the wind stirring, lifting me up high
I was born into freedom, I was made to fly”
About Jenae Tankersley
Jenae is an Arkansas girl who has grown to love the big city of Dallas, Texas. She’s always looking for the next adventure and loves change more than comfort. As a writer and photographer, she aspires to capture what is often overlooked - to find beauty in everyday life and put courage in every person she meets along the way. She lives amazed by Jesus and His abundant grace that makes her confident. Running, traveling, gardening, and coffee are just a few of the things that feed her soul.