After what seemed like a lifetime of the enemy using God's own word against me, I found myself at a crossroads, literally. I had lived my life obeying the rules and doing the right thing out of fear, not love. I said to God, "If this is what it means to be a Christian, I want nothing to do with it. I cannot do it. I can't be good enough. I can't handle this weight." His response was, "If you need to walk away in order to find Me, I can handle that."

My worshipper's heart was completely broken, not even wanting to worship anymore. I knew I loved God but didn't know why. He was made out to be angry and very judgmental. My desires to be obedient, loyal, hardworking and trusting were completely taken advantage of by people who represented Him. I was so hurt and disillusioned. I didn't know who I was, nevermind who God was. I had been lied to about His nature and my value. Then as I sat in a songwriting class with nine other students last April at Rita Springer’s Dive Creative, tired from a few days of non-stop learning, Rita, sitting at her keyboard begins to sing this then untitled song…

 

You go before I know, That You've gone to win my war

You come back with the head of my enemy, You come back and You call it my victory

You go before I know, That You've gone to win my war

Your love becomes my greatest defense, It leads me from the dry wilderness

All I did was praise

All I did was worship

All I did was bow down

All I did was stay still

Chorus:

Hallelujah, You have saved me,

So much better Your way

Hallelujah, great Defender, So much better Your way

You know before I do, Where my heart can seek to find Your truth

Your mercy is the shade I’m living in, You restore my faith and hope again

 

I listened for a while, intrigued by the words, not noticing tears streaming down my face. It's as if my heart way saying, "Are you hearing this? Do you even know what has happened? THIS IS YOU!" Just then she reached the bridge. I lost it.

 

When I thought I lost me, You knew where I left me

You reintroduced me to Your love, You picked up all my pieces

Put me back together, You are the defender of my heart


THIS SONG! THIS SONG! I had been healed from that place for about five years but I never knew the intensity of the battle over me. He fought for me! He defended my name! He ran after me! He saved me. It was in that moment the glory of the battle was revealed. I didn’t even know He had gone out to win my war. He led me from my dry wilderness by reintroducing me to His unbridled love. A love I never knew existed. It wasn’t based on what I did or didn’t do. It was all about who I am, and who I am is His treasured daughter - royalty. To Him, I was worth the fight. That is enough for me. I am enough for Him. This is our song. 

To Him, I was worth the fight. That is enough for me. I am enough for Him.
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More about Teresa Lickliter

Teresa and her husband, Jason, live in the DFW area, and have four kids. Teresa is a wife, mom, and is the head teacher at Warrior Academy (where she home schools her four children). She has a heart for worshipping the Lord and is on the worship team at her local church.   Teresa is a woman of many talents.  Once you think you have her "pegged" she surprises you with a new skill set or story.  Teresa humbly and gracefully follows the Lord's call.  She is raw, authentic, passionate, and can plan the the best parties. You can follow her blogging journey here.  

 

 

 

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