By Taylor Quintini
Comparison is paralyzing. If we are all honest, there are constant nagging thoughts that can cripple us daily. Yes, I said constant and I also said daily. This is true even for a secure person. You can be secure in your own skin or confident in your relationships and then in a split second become full of envy if you decide that someone else is in a place that you need to be. Like when you see a photo of the luxurious vacation your sister is on while your scenic view for the day is a mound of laundry. What about heading to church and watching others operating in their God-given gifts on a platform while you sit back and realize your days are filled with pushing papers and picking up after people - neither of which feel like a spiritual gift. Our thoughts can eat us alive if we allow them, even if we already know the things we are thinking are lies.
In my opinion, one of the EASIEST times for this to happen is when we find ourselves in the daily, the mundane or even the desert wilderness. Let’s be real…who signs up to go to the desert – that desolate place where nothing seems to be thriving, growing or producing life especially compared to mountain top moments. At one point or another we all hit those dry and quiet seasons and often times this happens when we are not doing things in life that we esteem to be important.
Undoubtedly, one of our great heroes of the faith found in the Old Testament is Moses. Want to talk about doing something for the Lord? Well, he parted the Red Sea and led what is estimated to be millions of people to the Promised Land on dry ground. Who can compare their life to his? Maybe more of us than we realize.
Let’s back up for a moment and look at the life of Moses prior to this victorious moment in his life. We learn in Exodus Chapter 2 that Moses was raised in Pharaoh’s house and although Hebrew he is kept in the most prominent home in Egypt. One day as a young adult he leaves the palace and sees the great affliction of his own Hebrew people. They are slaves and the Bible says they were forced into labor and had hard task-masters. Moses sees an Egyptian messing with a Hebrew and goes down and kills the Egyptian and buries his body (like a Lifetime movie no doubt). Later, two Hebrews start fighting amongst themselves and Moses steps in to break it up and they respond, who are you to judge? Are you going to kill us and bury us like you did the Egyptian? Moses becomes very afraid. Everyone knew His secret. He flees and leaves Egypt. He marries and has a child and is living His life for forty years when the Lord calls to Him in that epic burning bush. Yes, a lot happened before that burning bush scene transpired.
Acts Chapter 7 is a part of Stephen’s Speech where He is recounting some of the Old Testament heroes we often hear about. Verse 25 says, “He (Moses) supposed that his brothers would understand that God was giving them salvation by his hand, but they did not understand.” You see Moses assumed that his Hebrew brothers would believe that God was bringing deliverance to them through Moses back when he was living that lush palace life in Egypt. It all made perfect sense to him. He was put in a place of prominence and power and could easily help save his own people. Oh, but God intended on there to be ONE Great deliverer and it was not Moses, it was Himself.
What have you been supposing?
It’s a simple question really, but I am afraid the answer can hit you in the face like a Mack Truck. We all do our own bit of supposing. We suppose that we understand how the Lord will use us when we become keenly aware of what we are capable of and what places of influence, connection or prominence we may hold. In fact, this is the very trap that ensnared Moses. Many of us know the areas we are gifted in and how we can use those gifts to change the lives of others or simply bless them. We also are often aware of how we can FIX a situation or FIX a person. Wasn’t this Moses’ very problem? He was quick to intervene in the affairs of others supposing he would be the savior of the problem. I have been guilty of this time and time again. I have to constantly ask myself, do I rely on my natural abilities, present circumstances and talents when I begin to suppose how the Lord will use me or move through me?
Do we realize that when we suppose we are often comparing? We get ideas in our heads (supposing) about the life others live and then we line it up to our own (comparison) and we form thoughts on how we view our own seasons vs. the seasons of others. We long for what we imagine to be the perfect, but the Lord is concerned with a purposeful work in our life. A work that produces a woman who is the real deal, refined by the Lord’s fire who comes out radiating His love and truth, rather than a woman caught up in her own quest for the Pinterest Perfect.
Moses was clearly called by the Lord, coming from a burning bush probably couldn’t have been clearer, but remember that he had just spent 40 years being consumed by the daily. By being a shepherd, getting married, having children. By quietly communing with the Lord rather than supposing He would be a great deliverer because of His prominence, position and power. In fact his response to God’s call in the burning bush is a list of excuses after he was so powerfully humbled– “Lord no one will believe you appeared to me. Lord, I am not eloquent of speech so surely there is someone better. Ok, God I am just flat out begging you to send someone else!” (Exodus Chapter 4). When I think of these responses in the framework of what took place, maybe these weren’t merely excuses to get out of being used, but maybe they were honest responses coming from a heart that had been completely humbled and understood God could use anyone and did not need Moses because he was talented or gifted in the natural.
If you happen to find yourself in what feels like the wilderness where not much fruit is visibly seen, remind yourself that before the bush burned brightly Moses went through a quiet season of humility, surrender and repentance before the Lord. He went through a time of holding no place of prominence or position of power. He saw his own human weaknesses and flaws and realized that he would never be the great deliverer of his people. But God! When he did surrender to that truth, God Almighty moved powerfully through Him and Moses became a vessel that God wanted to move through to lead others to freedom.
And next time you see a bush burning brightly and hear God speaking audibly to another person, remind yourself of what God did in Moses before the bush burned bright. He wants to get a hold of you right in the middle of your own dailies and do that refining work so that when the bush burns and it is the Lord speaking to you, your response is not one of supposing that you are God’s woman for the hour but one of humble surrender to what it is He is asking of you.
Next week we will jump right into our final part of this blog series and discuss how to be Hearers & Doers in the Dailies – all while we are right-in-the-thick of our everyday lives.
Intentionally Finding Grace in My Dailies:
- Stop chasing the perfect. Choose to think about purpose over perfection in your dailies! Kill comparison and stop trying to measure yourself to an impossible standard.
- Our faith in God should never rest in our ability to make things happen and to accomplish our dreams, but rather our faith should solely rest on His ability to be faithful.
- I will remind myself that the forty year work in Moses’ life was necessary to prepare Him for God’s call that would come in the burning bush. God wants to use us, but He wants us to be refined, humble and obedient.
About Taylor Quintini
I am thrilled that Taylor agreed to share this 4 part series with us. Taylor and her husband, Jeremy, live just outside of Baton Rouge. Jeremy is the Executive Pastor at Journey Church and Taylor loves to minister alongside of him. She is also the owner of Weddings Taylor Made, a wedding & event planning company (www.weddingstaylormade.com), she serves on the Refresh team and she does all of this while making sure her three littles are loved, fed, clothed, and clean (repeat). When I say little, I mean her three kids are 3 years old and 2 years old, and 7 months. I may need a nap just thinking about it all. Taylor is a natural leader, her heart is passionate for the Lord and she has a strong desire to share Him with others. I am not sure how the Lord managed to pack so much in such a petite person, but Taylor is brimming over with wisdom, she is strong, honest, and always aspiring to do more for the Lord. I am grateful that she takes time to jot her thoughts on paper and lets me share them with the world wide web.