I was sipping my slightly warm coffee in the kitchen when I heard the bloody-murder screams coming from the other side of the house. As I ran to find my one-year old daughter, I could tell she was in the laundry room. Our laundry room has two doors – one on each end of the long rectangular room. As I looked into the room I found my daughter crying (more like screaming) and leaning against the opposite door that was closed. She clearly thought she was trapped after her brother must have slammed the door right in her face. “Maggie. Maaggiieee!” I called again a little louder because she couldn’t hear me over her own screaming….”MAAGGIIEE….” No response to my call, just increasingly louder screaming. She never bothered to turn around and see that I was there and she was safe. She never bothered to acknowledge that there could in fact be another way out and she was not doomed to live in said laundry room forever. Her eyes, her body and her mind were purely fixed on the door that was closed and she could not open. She could think of nothing else.
I felt the Holy Spirit gently whisper to me – “This is what you look like when you are determined to go your way, in your own strength and have your own plans – refusing to acknowledge that you may have to forsake the route you thought you needed to take to come and find Me. I want to show you a better way.“
Although not a specific scripture, we have probably all heard the phrase “when God closes a door He opens a window.” In hard times, we do not really want to hear this. It is a hard thing to have a door slammed in our face. When everything within us becomes convinced that we are headed in the right direction, a roadblock can bring on a toddler-like tantrum when we refuse to open our eyes and acknowledge that God has provided another means of escape (1 Corinthians 10:13).
I so desperately wanted my daughter to just turn around and acknowledge that I was there – that there was another exit – a way out that I could show her. I would lead her into freedom from the dreaded laundry room and make sure she was unharmed. How much more does the Lord desire us to turn to Him? To forsake our own ways and plans, to surrender to Him and allow Him to lead us where He wills. He knows so much more than we do and has not only His will, but also our best interest at heart.
Do we find our hearts thankful for a God who is ALWAYS leading – and leading perfectly? A God that is so supreme in power, but who humbly chooses to use human hands and broken vessels to bring forth His glory. Are we grateful to serve the God that has promised to lead us into triumphant victory, through his Son, Jesus Christ? “But thanks be to God, who in Christ always leads us in triumphal procession and through us spreads the fragrance of the knowledge of Him everywhere” (2 Corinthians 2:14, ESV).
Isaiah 30:21 says, “And your ears shall hear a word behind you, saying, ‘This is the way, walk in it,’ when you turn to the right or when you turn to the left.” This is one of my favorite verses in scripture, but I saw it come alive when I was that voice calling to my own daughter from behind. He is always calling us, drawing us, beckoning us to respond. Will we turn around and follow His voice? His direction?
Or will we refuse to turn our heads because our eyes are fixed on the problematic path in front of us. So come and “Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of our faith…”(Hebrews 12:2, ESV).
About Taylor Quintini
Taylor and her husband, Jeremy, live just outside of Baton Rouge. Jeremy is the Executive Pastor at Journey Church and Taylor loves to minister alongside of him. She is also the owner of Weddings Taylor Made, a wedding & event planning company (www.weddingstaylormade.com) and has recently embarked on a new venture of co-owning a vintage specialty rental business (www.timelessvintagerentals.com) she serves on the Refresh team and she does all of this while making sure her three littles (all 4 and under) are loved, fed, clothed, and clean (repeat). Taylor is a natural leader, her heart is passionate for the Lord and she has a strong desire to share Him with others. I am not sure how the Lord managed to pack so much in such a petite person, but Taylor is brimming over with wisdom, she is strong, honest, and always aspiring to do more for the Lord. I am grateful that she takes time to jot her thoughts on paper and lets me share them with the world wide web.